silence

a deafening sound is all i can hear
from a message summing all of my fear
never will my heart learn of the pain
of conversations getting so mundane

my soul tossed in an unended emotion
spiralling, spinning in confusion
a world i dream now coming apart
of a love that was never mine from the start

a promise told and a promise i shall keep
to be true to the one who makes my heart weep
loving you at a distance i shall stay
expressing my emotions i shall sway

but every moment i fight to keep my mind
images of you inside my head i find
so i lift my head to the moon above
and whisper in silence my unwavering love

trusting

two hearts two minds
two lives began to intertwine
two halves two souls
two parts of a whole

in a lifetime a moment happened
a connection made and deepened
tempered by the lives in the past
we look forward trusting to last

a dire need to be consoled
of a yearning love we hold
for like air i learned to breath
your love taught my heart to beat

be still my love for i will always be
in your heart to stay you will see
the time has come to be apart from you
but know that my heart will always be true

alone

moments I spend thinking about you
grips my heart with so much despair
for as I want to believe what I knew
that a love like ours we will always bear

a pact that no matter what we will be
on each others heart is where we'll stay
hoping to set these intense feelings free
in each others arms we'll find  a way

but for now in silence will i love thee
while my lonely heart faintly beats alone
as i reminisce the happier you and me
dreaming of our magical place on my own.

empty room

i sit alone in this empty room
as images of your smile abound
gripping my soul in gloom
knowing of the painful reality i found

but thoughts of you forces my heart
to lighten up and beat as fast
though the grip of sadness do hurt
a burning hope inside me is cast

i free my mind from doubts and fears
for i know what we have is very real
and no matter what brings these tears
only the one who holds my heart can feel

the secret lives our hearts do hold
the dreams, the reality take life on its own
i take refuge on the thoughts i mould
in solitude inside this empty room.

addiction

i blink i think
a second blurred to pass
as i spin out of sync
reality giving me a blast

a state my heart can't take
of a life missing a piece
of a love so much at stake
could never put us at ease

I find myself with this yearning
for a loves constant affection
seeking, wanting and needing
of a never ending addiction

of a smile that confuses my heart
as it beats faster and slower
rocking my life from the very start
and hoping that it would be forever.

love's ode

when you open your eyes, is it me that you see?
as you toss and turn do you think of me?
get up from bed do you suddenly crack a smile?
sit for a moment do you wonder a little while?
'bout the way you feel for me if it is real?
or just a fleeting fantasy you want to deal?

you are the angel that greets my eye
my thoughts of you always brings me to a sigh
the smile you cause i will always have
as i sit and wonder about our love
my heart can't explain how i really feel
but i know that it is not fantasy, it is for real

for once did you ever regret finding me?
will you still be there when we are free?
do you think i am worth the conflict and the pain?
are the thoughts of me driving you insane?
will you love me enough to see through my imperfection?
or will it just be a case of an intense infatuation?

the only regret is that i could not have you.
for such moment i'll spend eternity if i have to
the troubles caused are welcomed by my tempered heart
if insanity was the price then let me do my part
i love you for what you are, imperfect sometimes jaded
for my love has burned through time and never faded.

meant to be

time knows no bound
of a love i finally found
as the moon and the stars exist
you and me, our fate we cannot resist

distant apart, our minds always speaks
of special thoughts we constantly seek.
for i was meant for you and you for me
the universe moves to where we should be

i take heed of this feeling inside
all day i keep thinking about it with pride
for baby having you in my life again
is worth all of the difficulties and pain.

beauty

like a beautiful sunrise of a new day start
of colorful rainbows appearing after the rain
i feel the warmth and joy you bring to my heart
and ease my sorrowed soul from my journeys pain

like two hemispheres who cannot part from the whole
of nourishing air that keeps the heart alive
you complete my existence as i tried living the role
the mere thought of you pushes me to survive

like the breathtaking sunset of the desert sun
of the serenity brought by a pale moonlit night
my life halts to wonder of the beautiful one
soothing my feelings so i know i will be alright.

yearning

out of the blue she touched my life
i have feelings for her more than just like

but i cannot say it for we are not free
my heart aches constantly knowing in can never be

consoling my soul of feelings she has for me
but torned of the pain these feelings has caused

like a double edge sword that slashes away
whichever direction its sharp blades wounds

i feel pain because of the absence of her
losing a part that makes me complete

i feel pain of the guilt she goes through
torn and conflicted i cause with my presence

of star crossed destiny is how i see our story
touch each others lives but could never be

i leave it to the future of what would become
if i could change the stars and we can be one

the embers of this feeling will definitely burn out
but hope burns to keep me warm on the cold nights

thinking of what could have been moments by her side
stealing glances just to catch a glimpse of her smile.

these wishful thinking may just be of passing
but I'll spend the rest of my days contemplating

of a life that could have been,
but in reality not mine to keep.

whispers

a voice, a whisper i constantly yearn
to hear for a moment how can i learn
to pass my time and not knowing
of an angels whispers constantly blowing,
in my head, in my thoughts i always pray
my angels whispers i would hear every single day

A simple hi, a sweet hello i anxiously wait
for a message to nudge me out of this senseless state
of emptiness and loneliness spreading inside me
like a cut bleeding slowly draining my energy
i go on lifeless and weary as every second pass
spiraling down into oblivion forgetting where i was

consciousness broke the stream of thoughts in my slumber
as i traveled this desolate road out of nowhere
the endless pavement rushes before my very eyes
pursuing the infinite distance of the ultimate prize
to share a moment of blissful connection of heart and mind
but alas reality has its grip and so i did find

things to console my mind my heart my soul
an expression of emotions limitless as a whole
all my senses heightened to take form
of words played out in the midst of a storm
as i take shelter from its uncertain wrath
these poems will be my strength of the aftermath

soujourner

the day begins with a lingering past
of promises and ideals that i was tasked
a life i lived but now i find
the sadness in me grips my mind

but as i take flight on a new days end
hope fills me up while my spirit mend
as my heart awakens to a new rhythm
of a life ahead full of optimism

as my sluggish day ticks its hours away
my thoughts melts to a girl as i lay
a muse inspiring me of life's new dawn
to glimpse a future of dreams I've flown

eagerly i embrace my leap of faith
fear creeps slowly away from my state
for now i feel my soul reborn
of a journey to a place I sojourn

uncertain

I stare I glare
beneath this blistering sun
i know not where

a face i chase
beyond the endless horizon of sand
i searched the place

of you and only you
an angel who had my heart
in me remained so true

i speak i seek
the wonder that makes me dream
a second without you makes me weak

i stay I pray
from up above for strength to keep
even just for a day

I tend to spend
my journey without the idea of you
but lo it is without end

so now I bow
to fate at hand the life i'm dealt
to spend it I know not how

fin

torned

Empty like a shell washed to the shore
Hurt like my heart bleeds the life out of me
Cold like the sun lost its warmth and shines no more
TORNED by this feeling that our story cannot be.

Scared of whats behind the walls of uncertainty
Tired of denying my hearts desire
Crushed by the quagmire of emotions rushing infinitely
TORNED by the thought of a love on fire

Empty of the thoughts of how we could've been
Hurt burdens my soul of the reality
Cold as the night overcomes the happy scene
TORNED between a love of morality and purity

Scared as time ticks its hand
Tired of the unrelenting beating of my heart
Crushed beneath the world you stand
I am TORNED by these hearts being constantly apart.

depressed

Depressed as the the light shows the hint of dusk of another days end.
Depressed as i lay in bed transfixed on the ceiling above
Depressed as I recount my life's past
Depressed as I realize i am all alone
Depressed as the moment succumbs to the passing time
Depressed as the loneliness reaches to the depth of my bones
Depressed knowing that only in my dreams I could be
Depressed because of what has become of me
Depressed because i yearn for something that cannot be
Depressed because something beautiful is gone
A euphoric dream it once was now lay in the edge of obscurity
As I lay and watch it fade just like the light of dusk in a days end.

timeless

The first look a first sight
of the girl I know will change my life
I hide, I tried, I died
The day she left was my coldest night

For never was a girl in this heart of mine
Left a a hole I could never mend
I wished, I dreamed , I imagined
For time to stop and the sun would shine

As years passed one by one
The flame inside lays dormant
I woke, I choked, I broke,
As reality bit I thought I was done.

Weathered through the seasons
A tiny speck of light remained
I laughed, I smiled, I shouted
Finally realizing that you are the reason

Crossing paths once more I knew
Will find us star crossed lovers
Limitless, Boundless, Timeless
Is the love I have always been feeling for you

of roads not taken

what if i looked
instead of staring away
what if i spoke
instead of nothing to say

what if i said hi
just for a little while
instead of turning around
and walk a fast mile

What if i called
and said my real name
would it all turn out
just like now and the same

what if i flew
before I could fly
would we be good friends
if i made you cry

what if i was steadfast
and pursued what was in my heart
would have fate been just
and play his part

what if i never sent the picture
would you still remember me
of someone still contemplating
of the roads not taken

untainted you

a fleeting moment
of a memory past
a lamenting heart
when the die was cast

walls of distance abound
as time dampens the sound
of echoes of you in my mind
the spark i will never find

wallowing in sadness I seek
a great yearning to reachout
as thoughts of you now grown weak
i can only cry out loud

but fate has its own accord
does not say, not a word
a chance I might say
for destinies to sway

then a chance I took from the past
has presented itself before me
the moment has come at last
and appease fates decree

an exchange of thoughts, and of mind
in each other we did find
then the walls of unfamilarity fell
and found somebody I once knew well

like a snapshot from a distant past
of innocence and crushes of few
even though the changes from before is vast
I will always remember an untainted you