soujourner

the day begins with a lingering past
of promises and ideals that i was tasked
a life i lived but now i find
the sadness in me grips my mind

but as i take flight on a new days end
hope fills me up while my spirit mend
as my heart awakens to a new rhythm
of a life ahead full of optimism

as my sluggish day ticks its hours away
my thoughts melts to a girl as i lay
a muse inspiring me of life's new dawn
to glimpse a future of dreams I've flown

eagerly i embrace my leap of faith
fear creeps slowly away from my state
for now i feel my soul reborn
of a journey to a place I sojourn

uncertain

I stare I glare
beneath this blistering sun
i know not where

a face i chase
beyond the endless horizon of sand
i searched the place

of you and only you
an angel who had my heart
in me remained so true

i speak i seek
the wonder that makes me dream
a second without you makes me weak

i stay I pray
from up above for strength to keep
even just for a day

I tend to spend
my journey without the idea of you
but lo it is without end

so now I bow
to fate at hand the life i'm dealt
to spend it I know not how

fin

torned

Empty like a shell washed to the shore
Hurt like my heart bleeds the life out of me
Cold like the sun lost its warmth and shines no more
TORNED by this feeling that our story cannot be.

Scared of whats behind the walls of uncertainty
Tired of denying my hearts desire
Crushed by the quagmire of emotions rushing infinitely
TORNED by the thought of a love on fire

Empty of the thoughts of how we could've been
Hurt burdens my soul of the reality
Cold as the night overcomes the happy scene
TORNED between a love of morality and purity

Scared as time ticks its hand
Tired of the unrelenting beating of my heart
Crushed beneath the world you stand
I am TORNED by these hearts being constantly apart.

depressed

Depressed as the the light shows the hint of dusk of another days end.
Depressed as i lay in bed transfixed on the ceiling above
Depressed as I recount my life's past
Depressed as I realize i am all alone
Depressed as the moment succumbs to the passing time
Depressed as the loneliness reaches to the depth of my bones
Depressed knowing that only in my dreams I could be
Depressed because of what has become of me
Depressed because i yearn for something that cannot be
Depressed because something beautiful is gone
A euphoric dream it once was now lay in the edge of obscurity
As I lay and watch it fade just like the light of dusk in a days end.

timeless

The first look a first sight
of the girl I know will change my life
I hide, I tried, I died
The day she left was my coldest night

For never was a girl in this heart of mine
Left a a hole I could never mend
I wished, I dreamed , I imagined
For time to stop and the sun would shine

As years passed one by one
The flame inside lays dormant
I woke, I choked, I broke,
As reality bit I thought I was done.

Weathered through the seasons
A tiny speck of light remained
I laughed, I smiled, I shouted
Finally realizing that you are the reason

Crossing paths once more I knew
Will find us star crossed lovers
Limitless, Boundless, Timeless
Is the love I have always been feeling for you

of roads not taken

what if i looked
instead of staring away
what if i spoke
instead of nothing to say

what if i said hi
just for a little while
instead of turning around
and walk a fast mile

What if i called
and said my real name
would it all turn out
just like now and the same

what if i flew
before I could fly
would we be good friends
if i made you cry

what if i was steadfast
and pursued what was in my heart
would have fate been just
and play his part

what if i never sent the picture
would you still remember me
of someone still contemplating
of the roads not taken

untainted you

a fleeting moment
of a memory past
a lamenting heart
when the die was cast

walls of distance abound
as time dampens the sound
of echoes of you in my mind
the spark i will never find

wallowing in sadness I seek
a great yearning to reachout
as thoughts of you now grown weak
i can only cry out loud

but fate has its own accord
does not say, not a word
a chance I might say
for destinies to sway

then a chance I took from the past
has presented itself before me
the moment has come at last
and appease fates decree

an exchange of thoughts, and of mind
in each other we did find
then the walls of unfamilarity fell
and found somebody I once knew well

like a snapshot from a distant past
of innocence and crushes of few
even though the changes from before is vast
I will always remember an untainted you