forever

I know u cant wait forever

And i never obligated you to do so.

I know i always disappoint you

Even if my intention is to please you

I know i am just an option

That can easily be replaced

I know i just have to be thankful

For the time you spared to know me

I know i am not much

But just accept what i mean to you

But for what its worth

These feeling for you is always true

All my life i searched for this feeling

All my life i never thought i will find it

All my life i thought the happiness

All my life i thought of the sadness

These things i will always ponder

And this is how i will remain forever.

alone

two hearts in loneliness beating
finally found the missing rhythm

two souls with destiny lost in time
finally found their half sublime

two lives intertwined in a tangled hold
serindipitous as their life journey unfolds

but time and circumstance eludes the dance
as one has lost the other takes chance

to hold on to a dream amidst the pain
the sorrow the loneliness again and again

for what is life for the one who seeked
the other half who makes him weak

to watch her drift in subtlety and in guise
to mask a feeling neither one denies

when will this heart ever realize
when the other half no longer recognize

the missing rhythm the two hearts found
as the air of loneliness comes around.

So who am i?

Who am i to ask for your time
knowing you were never mine

who am i to seek for your affection
knowing that i am but an option

who am i to think that u need me
knowing i could never be worthy

who am i to claim your heart
it was never mine from the start

who am i to dream this dream
when there is nothing more to believe in

here i am with nothing to hold on
of fleeting and shattered dreams
when embers die alone
will my heart ever redeem?

the half that wouldn't be
the love that wouldn't see
the life that couldnt be
and the dream that will never be.

reasons

let these words reminds us why
when words are spoken without a sound
feelings soar as high as the sky
or plummets down these earthly ground
fire rekindles as our hearts cry
as soul mates dance an eternal bound

several times i gazed into your eyes,
despite all the things that have happened
despite all the changes in our lives
the warmth in your eyes i always see
i feel peace and stillness in my soul
reminiscing cherished moments of you and me
affirming the love that makes us whole

so why do we love each other?
these are the reasons why as i can remember.

you love me because of ....
my shyness, my in aggressiveness
my humility , my possessiveness
the way i pamper you like a baby
the way i do little sweet things for you
the way i look at you like you are the only treasure in the world
the way i look when i have these little spats of tantrums

I love you because of ....
your strength and your weakness
your substance and compassion.
your honesty and understanding
how you make my heart beat so differently every time
how you make me feel good about myself
the sweetness and the care you have shown

we love each other because of....
the way we hold each other when we make love
the way we kiss each others faces
the way we look at each other that leads us to a passionate kiss
the comfort and warmness of our embrace

baby you are my best friend, my confidant and my lover
i love you not because you are perfect
i love you because i have accepted your imperfections
which i have grown to love with every beating of my heart.

insanity

i lay down staring at nothing
as i drifted away in slumber
my thoughts turns into dreams
thats all i could remember

but emptiness in my soul remains
of a love i constantly yearn
like a bubble i eagerly reach
and disappears at a slightest touch

why do i constantly fear
the thought of losing you forever
i lose my wits pondering upon
those moments you want to give up

am i expendable and unworthy
for a love i feel in my core
can it easily be erased from memory
is it not worth figthing for?

these feelings have grown deeper
with roots sunk deep in my heart
the waiting,the yearning seems forever
takes hold and consumes my every part

used to be when a quick hi
a simple smile and goodbye
could ease this timid feelings
as it waits for the next reply

for now only the constant sound
of a soothing voice so profound
could ease this raging flames
of emotions just waiting it remains.

frustration

i know im difficult to convince sometimes
but its the only way i can get things out
of my head, Frustrating i know i am sometimes
but i do understand what you said.

should we reversed the roles we're in
wouldnt you be feeling the same?
anxiety, fear and torture within
with nobody else but yourself to blame

I appreciate it so much for bearing with me
please dont be mad, dont be pissed, dont be angry,
cause all of this crazy thoughts are but temporary
so just give me your smile and say you love me.

greater meaning

for fulfilling my dreams i should learn to appreciate
for the friendship you have given me i should learn confidence
for the importance you gave me i should learn dignity
for a piece of your precious time i should learn contentment
for the care you have shown me i should learn patience
for the promise of a life together one day i should never loose hope
for giving me greater meaning to this world i must learn to live
and most of all for the love you have for me i must learn to ACCEPT and TRUST

restless yearning

This silence when we are apart 
brings ramblings in my heart, 
as whispers of your voice echoes in my mind 
only shadows of you i can find, 

a sleepless night i foresee, 
i cannot wait for us to be. 
One day i always pray 
in my arms forever you will lay.

through my window i watch the moon
willing its light to shine upon
half the heart that completes mine
imploring to be whole again in time

but when will i ever see the day
of waking up beside u and say ...
i love you so much and look you in the eye
as our lips locked in a kiss and a sigh,

Picture Perfect

picture perfect memories
of moments we shared together
is this how we will stay forever?

your lips on mine in a kiss sublime
as passion grows and fills the space
will it ever be enough to see your face?

a touch from your hand sends me in a bliss
of swirling clouds of emotional high
will i keep holding myself with a sigh?

all these questions, keeps me asking
fates plan for us i keep seeking
so i toss and turn every night
for a love's futures' uncertain plight

but doubts i have vanishes from my thoughts
pain i feel inside replaced by warmth
as the picture perfect memories has caught
cherished moments that stays forever in my heart