A Raptured Life

restless yearning

2012-01-26T15:29:00.000-08:00

This silence when we are apart
brings ramblings in my heart,
as whispers of your voice echoes in my mind
only shadows of you i can find,

a sleepless night i foresee,
i cannot wait for us to be.
One day i always pray
in my arms forever you will lay.

through my window i watch the moon
willing its light to shine upon
half the heart that completes mine
imploring to be whole again in time

but when will i ever see the day
of waking up beside u and say ...
i love you so much and look you in the eye
as our lips locked in a kiss and a sigh,

Picture Perfect

2012-01-21T10:15:00.000-08:00

picture perfect memories
of moments we shared together
is this how we will stay forever?

your lips on mine in a kiss sublime
as passion grows and fills the space
will it ever be enough to see your face?

a touch from your hand sends me in a bliss
of swirling clouds of emotional high
will i keep holding myself with a sigh?

all these questions, keeps me asking
fates plan for us i keep seeking
so i toss and turn every night
for a love's futures' uncertain plight

but doubts i have vanishes from my thoughts
pain i feel inside replaced by warmth
as the picture perfect memories has caught
cherished moments that stays forever in my heart

if love

2011-09-09T01:07:00.000-07:00

if love can dry your tears
can it take away your fears?

if love can bring you a smile
can I make it worth your while?

if love can push away the pain
can you still love me in vain?

if love can fill the emptiness
can it also break the loneliness?

if love can bring a sparkle into your eyes
will you look at me as your ultimate prize

if love can redeem your soul
would you still risk it all?

if love conquers all they say
then why resist a heart that never sway.

count the ways

2011-08-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

of endless hours and endless days
feeling lost i can never count the ways

of how my heart aches for you
but what else is there I can do

nothing more will I yearn from this
only your Love, your warm hugs of bliss

i know i am and will always be in your heart
so i make a promise from you I will never part

because I know for now it will never be
so instead I keep dreaming of us constantly

my eyes have shed their tears
of the times I gave in to my fears

This loneliness I keep feeling inside
until then it will never subside

while i yearn for your touch once more
each single day with grit right into my core

then I see you for a moment my heart skips a beat
but when i don't hear from you i feel it ripped

so I just close my eyes and see your face
reminiscing our precious moments as i count the ways.

missing you

2011-08-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

I count the hours, 

I count the days.

How much I miss you, 

I count the ways.



I miss your voice,

I miss your touch.

And I miss the face,

That I love so much.



How to describe it, 

There is no way.

I walk around,

In a permanent daze.



I long to feel,

Your warm embrace.

And to see a smile,

Upon your face.



I will not sleep,

Won't close one eye.

Until you're home, 

Safe by my side.



While you're away,

And I'm here alone.

I think of you out there,

In a world of your own

I miss you so much, 

as the moon must have the stars

And this feeling will go on,

Until you're safe in my arms.

feelings

2011-08-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

When I am wrapped up in your arms,
I feel safer than ever before.
When you stare into my eyes, its a feeling I can't ignore.
I know this isn't just a game,
because, what I feel for you,
I never felt with anyone else.
When I am close to you I am overwhelmed with happiness.
You're what I've been waiting for my whole life.
You're someone I can share my love with,
you take away my fears.
Words can't express how much I love you.
But, through this short amount of time,
I hope you realize that my love for you is real.
I'm not with you to play games,
and I know you feel the same.
With you, is where I want to be
because I found someone who loves me just for me.
You give me all the reason in the world
to believe that you won't hurt me in anyway.
And if I ever lost you,
I don't know what I would do.
You probably think I am crazy,
but truthfully I'm not.
Every time that we're together,
it's a whole new experience for me.
All I see in this world,
is no one else but you and me.

Sunset

2011-08-12T02:06:00.000-07:00

Meeting you 

was pure destiny,

You and I 

were ment to be.



Maybe not now

but someday soon,

We'll meet not under the sun

but beneath the moon.



We'll watch the stars

'till they fade away,

but we won't fade

together we'll always stay.



This is the day 

I'm waiting for,

from that day

I'll love you more and more.



I can't wait to watch

the sun set with you,

every sunset from that day

'till the rest of our lives are through.

Heartbeat

2011-08-12T01:51:00.000-07:00

One heart alone, makes but a single beat

A sound so low and incomplete

A heart all alone, waiting to be heard

Knows not the beauty or songs of singing birds

One heart all alone, knows not love or tenderness

It feels nothing, but has emptiness

A heart alone, searches for its mate

It waits, trust fate, contemplates

Until by chance another beat it hears

That sound it has longed for all these years

Like the timbre of a bass drum

It hears an answer, another thrum



Two hearts are beating, strong and true

The sound grows louder, waiting is through

Two hearts are beating, within one another

Searching is over, they have found that lover

Two hearts are beating, they grow and grow

Together forever, never wanting to go

Two hearts are beating, as the sun goes down

A love true, a love strong, both are bound

And as the sound gently fades into night

Two hearts are beating, this they know is just right

hearts hope

2011-07-05T02:14:00.000-07:00

just another day, and i spent it reminiscing
of a smile that haunts my soul's been longing
when all i have is a dream of a passionate love
In my heart i keep wondering if i will ever have

like the ebbing of the tide it rises and falls
this feeling of doubt and hope constantly enthralls
as moments are tainted with specks of sadness
but only a loves promise can ease such madness

as i lay here in the darkness of the night
pondering upon your kiss and holding you tight
the cuddles that comforts me in my slumber
and your soft loving touch i will always remember.

i hang on to a promise of us in days to come
as i put behind my burdens and my qualms
giving me hope of a life that one day we'll spend
to be together in each others arms till the end.

crossroad

2011-05-25T19:52:00.000-07:00

a kiss from your soft lips
a tender touch to my face
i look into your eyes
and saw the dreams come to life

a soft whisper to your ears
of a love surrendered for years
now our paths finally crossed
we make moments for the time we lost

an oh so familiar smile
like a picture frozen in time
i basked in its warmth for a while
knowing my heart is at home at last

a crossroad now lies before me
regrets from the south i brought forth
west my morality, east my sanity
but you are my hearts true north

As I see the horizon up yonder
full of possibilities and wonder
inspired by the thought of a love
i pray to the heavens up above

i take strength of the promises we keep
to be forever in each others heart
i close my eyes with this thought as i sleep
and wish forever we shall never part

first time

2011-05-13T17:57:00.001-07:00

the day i finally met you
was a day of many firsts
first look into your eye
smiling that big bright smile
the first shove the first touch
a first embrace of long lost friend
frozen in memory hoping it will never end
the first silence the first glance
fearing of suddenly waking up
from this dream i dreamed a thousand times
my first conversation right beside you
the first giggle as we reminisce
of a fantasy now becoming a sweet reality
the first jog, the first walk
all are first and how we talk
about our life that passed through the years yearning
the wondering, the searching and finally discovering
of our deep rooted connection only soulmates could understand
the first dance of a secret romance
moving through a rhythm of a love sublime
our first portrait together taken by chance
pausing the moment but is it a crime?
to love a forbidden love
I had fate to thank for all the first
the chance of finally meeting you is more i can ask
but pardon my heart if it yields not of the thirst
as i hold you closely even more with a mask
for now we wear the shackles of obligation
fearing of society's condemnation
but i whisper a promise to fate even if it hurts
that my love will endure after all of these many firsts.

changing heart

2011-04-07T15:22:00.000-07:00

a misty eye a thoughtless act
a defenseless heart struck deep inside
murmurs of my conscience constantly mock
the rapture of my helpless plight

heartless and painful as it feels
when letting go of an emotion within
what once was a selfish heart that seals
devour my sanity and delivers me to sin

now i stand before the crossroad of a life
not grand yet humbled as we stand apart
counting our blessings not our strife
as we move on with our ever changing heart.

silence

2010-12-18T18:06:00.001-08:00

a deafening sound is all i can hear
from a message summing all of my fear
never will my heart learn of the pain
of conversations getting so mundane

my soul tossed in an unended emotion
spiralling, spinning in confusion
a world i dream now coming apart
of a love that was never mine from the start

a promise told and a promise i shall keep
to be true to the one who makes my heart weep
loving you at a distance i shall stay
expressing my emotions i shall sway

but every moment i fight to keep my mind
images of you inside my head i find
so i lift my head to the moon above
and whisper in silence my unwavering love

trusting

2010-12-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

two hearts two minds
two lives began to intertwine
two halves two souls
two parts of a whole

in a lifetime a moment happened
a connection made and deepened
tempered by the lives in the past
we look forward trusting to last

a dire need to be consoled
of a yearning love we hold
for like air i learned to breath
your love taught my heart to beat

be still my love for i will always be
in your heart to stay you will see
the time has come to be apart from you
but know that my heart will always be true

alone

2010-12-09T06:04:00.000-08:00

moments I spend thinking about you
grips my heart with so much despair
for as I want to believe what I knew
that a love like ours we will always bear

a pact that no matter what we will be
on each others heart is where we'll stay
hoping to set these intense feelings free
in each others arms we'll find a way

but for now in silence will i love thee
while my lonely heart faintly beats alone
as i reminisce the happier you and me
dreaming of our magical place on my own.

empty room

2010-10-03T02:42:00.001-07:00

i sit alone in this empty room
as images of your smile abound
gripping my soul in gloom
knowing of the painful reality i found

but thoughts of you forces my heart
to lighten up and beat as fast
though the grip of sadness do hurt
a burning hope inside me is cast

i free my mind from doubts and fears
for i know what we have is very real
and no matter what brings these tears
only the one who holds my heart can feel

the secret lives our hearts do hold
the dreams, the reality take life on its own
i take refuge on the thoughts i mould
in solitude inside this empty room.

addiction

2010-10-01T16:10:00.001-07:00

i blink i think
a second blurred to pass
as i spin out of sync
reality giving me a blast

a state my heart can't take
of a life missing a piece
of a love so much at stake
could never put us at ease

I find myself with this yearning
for a loves constant affection
seeking, wanting and needing
of a never ending addiction

of a smile that confuses my heart
as it beats faster and slower
rocking my life from the very start
and hoping that it would be forever.

love's ode

2010-09-14T06:50:00.001-07:00

when you open your eyes, is it me that you see?
as you toss and turn do you think of me?
get up from bed do you suddenly crack a smile?
sit for a moment do you wonder a little while?
'bout the way you feel for me if it is real?
or just a fleeting fantasy you want to deal?

you are the angel that greets my eye
my thoughts of you always brings me to a sigh
the smile you cause i will always have
as i sit and wonder about our love
my heart can't explain how i really feel
but i know that it is not fantasy, it is for real

for once did you ever regret finding me?
will you still be there when we are free?
do you think i am worth the conflict and the pain?
are the thoughts of me driving you insane?
will you love me enough to see through my imperfection?
or will it just be a case of an intense infatuation?

the only regret is that i could not have you.
for such moment i'll spend eternity if i have to
the troubles caused are welcomed by my tempered heart
if insanity was the price then let me do my part
i love you for what you are, imperfect sometimes jaded
for my love has burned through time and never faded.

meant to be

2010-09-11T08:26:00.001-07:00

time knows no bound
of a love i finally found
as the moon and the stars exist
you and me, our fate we cannot resist

distant apart, our minds always speaks
of special thoughts we constantly seek.
for i was meant for you and you for me
the universe moves to where we should be

i take heed of this feeling inside
all day i keep thinking about it with pride
for baby having you in my life again
is worth all of the difficulties and pain.

beauty

2010-08-13T06:29:00.001-07:00

like a beautiful sunrise of a new day start
of colorful rainbows appearing after the rain
i feel the warmth and joy you bring to my heart
and ease my sorrowed soul from my journeys pain

like two hemispheres who cannot part from the whole
of nourishing air that keeps the heart alive
you complete my existence as i tried living the role
the mere thought of you pushes me to survive

like the breathtaking sunset of the desert sun
of the serenity brought by a pale moonlit night
my life halts to wonder of the beautiful one
soothing my feelings so i know i will be alright.

yearning

2010-08-11T08:10:00.001-07:00

out of the blue she touched my life
i have feelings for her more than just like

but i cannot say it for we are not free
my heart aches constantly knowing in can never be

consoling my soul of feelings she has for me
but torned of the pain these feelings has caused

like a double edge sword that slashes away
whichever direction its sharp blades wounds

i feel pain because of the absence of her
losing a part that makes me complete

i feel pain of the guilt she goes through
torn and conflicted i cause with my presence

of star crossed destiny is how i see our story
touch each others lives but could never be

i leave it to the future of what would become
if i could change the stars and we can be one

the embers of this feeling will definitely burn out
but hope burns to keep me warm on the cold nights

thinking of what could have been moments by her side
stealing glances just to catch a glimpse of her smile.

these wishful thinking may just be of passing
but I'll spend the rest of my days contemplating

of a life that could have been,
but in reality not mine to keep.

whispers

2010-08-08T08:55:00.001-07:00

a voice, a whisper i constantly yearn
to hear for a moment how can i learn
to pass my time and not knowing
of an angels whispers constantly blowing,
in my head, in my thoughts i always pray
my angels whispers i would hear every single day

A simple hi, a sweet hello i anxiously wait
for a message to nudge me out of this senseless state
of emptiness and loneliness spreading inside me
like a cut bleeding slowly draining my energy
i go on lifeless and weary as every second pass
spiraling down into oblivion forgetting where i was

consciousness broke the stream of thoughts in my slumber
as i traveled this desolate road out of nowhere
the endless pavement rushes before my very eyes
pursuing the infinite distance of the ultimate prize
to share a moment of blissful connection of heart and mind
but alas reality has its grip and so i did find

things to console my mind my heart my soul
an expression of emotions limitless as a whole
all my senses heightened to take form
of words played out in the midst of a storm
as i take shelter from its uncertain wrath
these poems will be my strength of the aftermath

soujourner

2010-07-30T01:38:00.001-07:00

the day begins with a lingering past
of promises and ideals that i was tasked
a life i lived but now i find
the sadness in me grips my mind

but as i take flight on a new days end
hope fills me up while my spirit mend
as my heart awakens to a new rhythm
of a life ahead full of optimism

as my sluggish day ticks its hours away
my thoughts melts to a girl as i lay
a muse inspiring me of life's new dawn
to glimpse a future of dreams I've flown

eagerly i embrace my leap of faith
fear creeps slowly away from my state
for now i feel my soul reborn
of a journey to a place I sojourn

uncertain

2010-07-24T15:00:00.001-07:00

I stare I glare
beneath this blistering sun
i know not where

a face i chase
beyond the endless horizon of sand
i searched the place

of you and only you
an angel who had my heart
in me remained so true

i speak i seek
the wonder that makes me dream
a second without you makes me weak

i stay I pray
from up above for strength to keep
even just for a day

I tend to spend
my journey without the idea of you
but lo it is without end

so now I bow
to fate at hand the life i'm dealt
to spend it I know not how

fin

torned

2010-07-22T03:01:00.001-07:00

Empty like a shell washed to the shore
Hurt like my heart bleeds the life out of me
Cold like the sun lost its warmth and shines no more
TORNED by this feeling that our story cannot be.

Scared of whats behind the walls of uncertainty
Tired of denying my hearts desire
Crushed by the quagmire of emotions rushing infinitely
TORNED by the thought of a love on fire

Empty of the thoughts of how we could've been
Hurt burdens my soul of the reality
Cold as the night overcomes the happy scene
TORNED between a love of morality and purity

Scared as time ticks its hand
Tired of the unrelenting beating of my heart
Crushed beneath the world you stand
I am TORNED by these hearts being constantly apart.

depressed

2010-07-18T10:31:00.001-07:00

Depressed as the the light shows the hint of dusk of another days end.
Depressed as i lay in bed transfixed on the ceiling above
Depressed as I recount my life's past
Depressed as I realize i am all alone
Depressed as the moment succumbs to the passing time
Depressed as the loneliness reaches to the depth of my bones
Depressed knowing that only in my dreams I could be
Depressed because of what has become of me
Depressed because i yearn for something that cannot be
Depressed because something beautiful is gone
A euphoric dream it once was now lay in the edge of obscurity
As I lay and watch it fade just like the light of dusk in a days end.

timeless

2010-07-18T10:21:00.001-07:00

The first look a first sight
of the girl I know will change my life
I hide, I tried, I died
The day she left was my coldest night

For never was a girl in this heart of mine
Left a a hole I could never mend
I wished, I dreamed , I imagined
For time to stop and the sun would shine

As years passed one by one
The flame inside lays dormant
I woke, I choked, I broke,
As reality bit I thought I was done.

Weathered through the seasons
A tiny speck of light remained
I laughed, I smiled, I shouted
Finally realizing that you are the reason

Crossing paths once more I knew
Will find us star crossed lovers
Limitless, Boundless, Timeless
Is the love I have always been feeling for you

of roads not taken

2010-07-06T10:04:00.001-07:00

what if i looked
instead of staring away
what if i spoke
instead of nothing to say

what if i said hi
just for a little while
instead of turning around
and walk a fast mile

What if i called
and said my real name
would it all turn out
just like now and the same

what if i flew
before I could fly
would we be good friends
if i made you cry

what if i was steadfast
and pursued what was in my heart
would have fate been just
and play his part

what if i never sent the picture
would you still remember me
of someone still contemplating
of the roads not taken

untainted you

2010-07-04T12:44:00.002-07:00

a fleeting moment
of a memory past
a lamenting heart
when the die was cast

walls of distance abound
as time dampens the sound
of echoes of you in my mind
the spark i will never find

wallowing in sadness I seek
a great yearning to reachout
as thoughts of you now grown weak
i can only cry out loud

but fate has its own accord
does not say, not a word
a chance I might say
for destinies to sway

then a chance I took from the past
has presented itself before me
the moment has come at last
and appease fates decree

an exchange of thoughts, and of mind
in each other we did find
then the walls of unfamilarity fell
and found somebody I once knew well

like a snapshot from a distant past
of innocence and crushes of few
even though the changes from before is vast
I will always remember an untainted you